It is 4:12 am.

I have a paper due in just about 12 hours.

I have barely half a page of a 5-7 page paper written.

Why, oh why, can I NOT just get it done?

Stupid 19th century British literature. Jerks.

Blah.

So, I've checked e-mail, facebook, every blog of every person I know, wikipedia (for hours), and debated back and forth and back again on what to spend some Amazon money I have on, and cleaned my room as thoroughly as possible without a vacuum cleaner.

And yet... barely any paper written.

Grrrrrrr.

I feel like I'm beginning to growl occasionally in my real life. That's probably not so good. When guttural sounds take over generalized human speech. Whoops.

Anyway, I'm off to do a million things that aren't my 1/3-of-my-grade-paper.

Oh my beloved, oft neglected blog.

I had a very good long weekend, and I'll tell all about it at some point. But not tonight.

Just wanted to check in and let you know I'm not dead Blog. Don't worry.

Itaiiiiiii

I have a headache. Like, the headache to end all headaches.

I'm so not content at all. It kind of sucks.

Oh I dunno.

I have a Japanese test tomorrow. I'm not ready for it and I don't want to take it. Though, Tajima has been infinitely better lately. He teaches my smaller section and this semester, he's been WAY more relaxed and is really ready to joke and laugh at/with us. It's kind of fun. I still hate tue/thurs though, because all the people I don't like in the class are back. And by all, I mean one guy. That guy.

I'm conflicted with a boy issue as well, but then again, when am I not? It just sucks because it's one of those things that is totally out of my control. I have no ability to make it happen or not.

One of the Brown clubs is going to an archery range on March 1st, and I had really hoped one of my friends would go with me, because he seems like the kind of guy who would really get a kick out of it, it would be a cool time to hang out, and every once in a while I do like to show that I'm actually decent at something (even if that something is hitting a stationary target only meters away) but.... as always... no luck for me.

I really suck at this. And by this, I mean most things.

p.s. Errrrrka, yeah, if I could get rid of the ED commercials too, I would. I really don't care if someone's granpappy can't get it up. That's between him, his wife, his mistress, and his urologist.

-Currently Playing: Children of Dune, Part 1: Dune Messiah-

Ladies, can we keep commercials about "that itch you can't scratch" "embarrassing odor" and "vagisil" off of my tv set?? because it would be much appreciated.

True Love

I have rediscovered my first, true love. Bryan Singer.

First of all, he's the cutest thing ever.

Secondly, X2.

Etc.

Let's just say, if there's a path I'd like to follow, being a gay Jew from Jersey... There have been worse examples!

Plus he's SO CUTE!!

Ouch. I think I just got blown off by said lunch date boy.

Oh well. Que sera and all that.

Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to go play some more DEVIL MAY CRY 4!!!

Awesome....

-Currently Playing: Devil May Cry 4-

Kurushimi

Ugh I am so not ready for this Japanese test. I've actually been studying for days too. I just can't seem to memorize the 300 odd kanji I need to. Half of them are homophones and there are also a ton of synonyms. Goddamn.

I haven't even started reading this massive book I have to for wed either. Crap.

I had my summer plans all set in my head already but... now I'm sort of doubting that I'll actually get into the program I want to, so it's kind of like, what's the point? I just don't think I have what it takes to cut it. Which kind of sucks because I was doing it to see if it was something I could do as a career. Oops.

Such is my life.

I seriously must have been some kind of genocidal freak in a previous life because I have the worst karma/luck ever.

-Currently Playing - Sixth of June - It Dies Today -

Flip Cards

My weekend was very interesting.

Friday night I was up until almost 6am. Why? No reason. I just was.

Saturday I got up at about 10 to get ready for lunch at noon. Lunch with a boy. It was fun, though the place was empty and we were occasionally loud about things like his friend's porn collection or me getting a mysterious rash from a drunk girl at PJ's. Then we watched a movie. We have rediculously similar tastes in movies. B, camp, and horror. Excellent. There was hand holding, etc.

Then saturday night, I get a phone call from my friend asking if I want to participate in a dance party in List Art Center. It was great. Just a small group of people in an empty class room blaring Ayumi Hamasaki and Hairspray and Fergie.

Needless to say, no sleep coupled with hours and hours of dancing left me exhausted. I came back to the room, took a hot shower, and crashed. For like 13 hours.

And now I'm making flip cards for my Japanese shiken on tuesday. There are hundreds and hundreds of vocab words.... Oy.

And lated I have to read a litle Borges and finish my one page assignment for fiction writing. All in all, not a bad weekend.